Since I have chosen to become an "independent contractor" my appearance has taken a marked, downward slide into full-blown sloppy. Now that I am painting everyday, there is really no point in getting up and taking a shower only to put on paint-stained clothes. Or no point to apply makeup, wash my hair, etc. And let me clarify something...it's not like I put that much effort into my appearance when I had to go into an office everyday. I've never been into spending a lot of time on how I look-I hate it and the older I get, the more time I need to spend. Don't get me wrong, I like to look nice and presentable and in style--I just don't want to spend any time doing it. At all.
The other day I had a lunch meeting and it was all I could do to put on clean clothes that went together and wash AND dry AND style my hair! I found myself actually getting mad that I had to look nice. Indignant even. I find myself easing comfortably into not caring. I like the extra time not caring allows me. I net an extra 30 to 60 minutes A DAY by not caring how I look. An extra hour a day people!! That is huge! That is an hour I can paint, write, run, clean the house or bake cookies or run to the grocery store. It's like my own private stash of time, tucked away neatly into the span of a normal day. It's gravy.
Now I do start to feel a little guilty that I am not caring. I don't want my children to be embarrassed when I drop them off at school and not offending my husband with my appearance is also important. I just wish I could look decent and presentable without spending any time doing so.
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